I have to adjust to sharing my thoughts and experiences. I am a reserved person by nature. What I found out about being shy is that its more to it than what you see. I may come off strange because I am always present to a persons feelings when I come in contact with them. Its a gift. Its a sense. Its a thing. I also have had past experience where I needed to silence my feelings to survive. Expressing my feelings can be a struggle for me.
Now I can sympathize with my children. My girls don’t have the ability to express their feelings with words. They use their body. This is a reality of having autism for all three of my girls. They are true to themselves. That’s the beauty of this disability. They don’t hold back what is true for them in front of the world. They are courageous and I am checking myself right now. I want to be bold and my girls are showing me the way.
I am opening up to who I am. I get I only shy away to protect myself. But my children just proved to me three times over, that putting my feelings out there doesn’t mean anything if I’m not getting what I need. I am getting warmed up to this blogging venture. I am expressing myself until my family gets what we need.