My Husband just gave me a reminder that feeling nervous when looking for a home is natural. My whole life I’ve been searching for that perfect space to call my own. Since we’ve become a family home is more essential. But my Husband let me know that I can move forward with assurance when searching for a place to live.
In order to calm my nerves before I make phone calls, send out emails, and open my credit up for judgment I did some vision work. I’ll admit it was very difficult to quiet the rest of the world’s expectations in my head. The thought of my children having a place to study and learn more life skills is what set my mind right. I can see the girls at their work station doing school work. I can see the space set up for the girls homeschooling. I can see therapist making themselves comfortable while giving the girls treatment. Then I saw my Husband getting at home dialysis treatment while he is waiting for a new kidney.
Then I felt my energy increase after my vision work. My health and my family health come first. Isn’t that the greatest gift that home provides? When I think of home, health and happiness come to mind. This is different from the worry that I fed myself this past week. I was doubtful that my family and I could live in a decent place given our circumstances. But there is a different mind state leading my family now. We are worthy of a Home full of love with plenty of room for mental and spiritual growth. We are worthy of a Home where 3 teens with autism will receive the best education. We are worthy of a Home where my whole family can live a healthy lifestyle.
I’m not Chasing Home anymore. I’m doing the work necessary for us to have a home. Now I can lay all those worries to rest. I’ll keep you posted.